Jesus Christ

Deep roots

Happy Passover! No, I haven’t switched religions, but I did attend a seder meal hosted by a local catholic church the day prior to Holy Thursday. While I’ve read a number of books, especially by Dr. Scott Hahn, that dive into the connections between Passover and Mass, I was still surprised that the experience would affect me during the Triduum services. 

I would highly recommend for all Catholics to attend a seder meal at least once in their life if they are ever given the opportunity. Whether it be through a friend or family that is hosting it, or a parish church like the one I attended, as long as you have an English translation of what is being said, you will see the Mass emerge from the celebration. Participation; everyone is called to participate in the meal. While there are responses or actions for specific attendees — like the leader, the mother, and the younger children — many responses are spoken as the gathered community. The seder is a commemoration of the Passover meal the Israelites ate prior to their release from Egyptian slavery. As such, the beginning portion is spent teaching on the importance of remembering this event and thanking God for the deliverance. The Mass is a commemoration of the Last Supper that Jesus shared with His disciples, which happened to be a Passover meal. Having an understanding of the Passover meal, which the seder illustrates, allows Catholics to better appreciate and understand the Liturgy of the Eucharist.

While I do enjoy a small glass of wine with my meal from time to time, hearing that there are four glasses within the seder was a bit intimidating. I can usually make one glass last from appetizer through dessert, so as others were pouring the wine into my glass I appreciated their respect of pouring tiny amounts in my cup. One of the traditions is not pouring your own wine, but allowing others to pour it for you. The first cup, the cup of Blessing, is the first action after the general instructions of why the meal is celebrated. The second cup, the cup of Memory, is specifically aimed at the salvation God procured for the Israelites from their enslavers. One of the points the priest who led the seder meal pointed out was the wording in so many of the prayers, “Blessed are you, Lord our God, Ruler of the universe…” is similar to the prayer that is said over the bread and the wine after the gifts are presented at Mass, “Blessed are you Lord, God of all creation..” It seemed like each time there was a prayer, it began that way, and I felt I was waiting in anticipation for the events of the Last Supper.

Communion wafers are unleavened bread made from flour and water, and are a close cousin to the matzo that is served at the Passover meal. When the moment arrived for the breaking of the matzo and then consuming it, I thought, “This is it! This is when the Eurcharist was instituted!” And I was only half correct. One half of the Liturgy of the Eurcharist was established at that point in the meal. Poignantly, a portion of the bitter herbs are then eaten, followed by a mixture of both the bitter herbs and the matzo, or bread. Then commences the main meal. For this seder, it was more of a pot luck, so I don’t think a traditional seder would serve fried chicken and macaroni salad, but I did appreciate having a selection of foods from which to choose.

If you thought I’ve forgotten about the other glasses of wine, I have not. It was after the main meal was finished, we had the third cup, the cup of Redemption. I thought it was odd to have a glass of wine after a meal, but since I had food in my stomach and a short ride home, I figured another small glass would not be an issue. Oddly enough, the juxtaposition didn’t sink in until I was at Mass on Holy Thursday and as the priest raised the chalice to consecrate the wine, he said, “…when supper was ended…” YES! It was THIS particular point that Jesus instituted His Precious Blood, creating a New Covenant with not just His disciples present, but with all those who would share in this experience when they, and their successors, would do the same, “… in memory of Me.” This cup of redemption is the Blood that Jesus poured out during His Passion and Death on the Cross. 

In the Gospels of Matthew and Mark, Jesus remarks immediately after blessing and sharing the third cup, that He will not partake of the wine again until He partakes it in the new kingdom of God. It seems odd that Jesus would skip the fourth cup completely during a meal He wanted to share with his Apostles. But the fourth cup is the Cup of Hope and Freedom. And Jesus does drink it again, while on the cross in His final moments, those leading up to His death, which conquers all death and opens the gates of heaven again. The Passover meal didn’t end in the upper room, but rather concluded with the death of Jesus. But Jesus didn’t stay dead. Rather he rose again to show that He is the Lord of all creation and has brought healing and freedom to those who follow His way. 

For me, the best preparation for celebrating Easter has been to celebrate the Passover meal. It provided a perspective of the deep roots and traditions of the faith that have been handed down for thousands of years. The Mass has become more meaningful because of this experience. I’m sure if I am able to attend another seder in the future, it would help me unpack even more riches of the faith and I pray that we all have an opportunity to explore what a seder meal can offer our faith.

Mary at the Cathedral of St. Matthew the Apostle, Washington DC

The final sorrow

It seems fitting that during Holy Week, as we approach the Triduum, we pause to remember the seventh and final sorrow of Mary: Jesus is laid in the tomb. (John 19:39-42)

After a gruesome crucifixion, Jesus was really and truly gone from this life. The only thing left was to bury His remains. And the tomb seems to be a finality of his essence. All that promise of everlasting life, of healing, and of love, now seems lost. 

Due to the solemnity of the sabbath, Jesus had to be hastily buried. Even in the final moments of tending to His body, He could not receive the attentive preparation that was the norm. This must have added insult to pain Mary was already feeling from Jesus’ death. If Mary was there at the foot of the cross, I’m sure she was there at His tomb. Did she help arrange His body inside of the carved rock? Perhaps. Most likely, though, she had to watch as others rolled the large stone that sealed the entrance.

We know Mary had complete trust in God. If this was His will, while she may not have understood it completely, still she tried her best to be the support Jesus needed in His last moments. Did Mary stay and grieve at the rock tomb? I think anyone who has ever buried a loved one can have empathy for what Mary felt at that moment. The question of lingering because you don’t want to completely say goodbye, but knowing that there is nothing you can do and staying there staring at the gravesite will change nothing. Jesus did not leave her completely alone, as He put her into the care of the beloved apostle John. 

Mary still had a purpose on earth, and the first step was to keep living. That in itself can be its own sorrow — moving on when such a large portion of your life is absent. Even if Mary had understood all of Jesus’ teachings and knew He would rise again in three days, the pain of seeing Jesus being tortured to death may not have allowed Mary to focus on that future event. While the Acts of the Apostles record Mary as being present at Pentecost, perhaps that was not the only time the Apostles gathered around her. Maybe God allowed her to be present and be the unifying element for the Apostles in the time immediately after Jesus’ burial. Gathering around her, they would have shared their common grief and their common hope in God’s will. 

While most of the Apostles were looking for an earthly kingdom, the burial of Jesus gave them time to reflect on the time they spent with Jesus and all that He communicated to them. I can imagine the eleven men, maybe more and perhaps with the women who accompanied the traveling party, simultaneously shedding tears and recalling the events that had the most impact on them. This time of “remember when …” would be the first oral Gospel as they shared the memories, maybe even mingling some laughter in with the tears.

“…for nothing will be impossible for God,” the angel had told Mary at the Annunciation. (Lk 1:37) Those words ran deeper than just the incarnation of Jesus or the fruitfulness of her barren relative Elizabeth. God had given Mary the ability to cope with being exiled in Egypt, with losing Jesus in the Temple in His last vestige of childhood, with prompting Jesus to perform His first miracle, and with everything He accomplished in His ministry, even to His passion and death. I wouldn’t be disappointed if Mary felt overwhelmed with these last events, and perhaps it would make her seem more relatable if she did. However, in our moments of greatest trials, God has given us Mary as a role model to follow in trusting Him. When in our toughest challenges we can say that all things are possible for God and we can get through this, we do so because of what was shared in the Gospels about Mary.

The stone rolled to seal Jesus in His tomb, while it may have seemed final, was not the end of the story. Mary didn’t know how the story would end, but we do. We know that life does not simply end on earth, but the soul continues to live on and can potentially be in the presence of God and all who love Him. The tomb is the final sorrow, because what comes next will overwhelm any pain or trial. But to get there, Mary and all the disciples needed to lean on God for strength and support. They needed to trust in His will. 

Let us pray this Holy Week that we too, may trust in God even when things seem impossible, and ask Mary to help lead us through the finality of the tomb-like darkness we experience in this life. 

Back in her arms

In the first moments of His life, Mary held the baby Jesus. And after being taken down from the cross, Jesus’ body was  placed in her arms. It had come full circle. The sixth sorrow of Mary is Jesus being taken down from the cross. 

Over the years I’ve read many reflections upon the crucifixion, and it is significant to note that in this instance, the body of Jesus was removed from the cross. Usually the point of a crucifixion is to be a deterrent for others. The Romans wanted the bodies to be hung for the maximum amount of time to dissuade others from repeating the crimes of those who hung on the cross. Crucifixions always took place in a highly visible area, just outside of the city or town, so that as many people as possible could see them. It could take several days for a person to die on a cross. The bodies were left hanging for all to see and the scavenger birds picked at the remains. Guards were often stationed there to prevent families from removing and burying the bodies. For Pilate to grant Joseph of Arimathea permission to remove the body was surprising from the perspective of Roman tradition. However, since Pilate had not wanted to crucify Jesus, granting this favor may have been a way Pilate sought to relieve his guilt of his part in the death of an innocent man.

While the Gospels do not specifically state Mary’s presence during this event, each does describe the burial of Jesus beginning with Joseph of Arimathea receiving permission to remove and bury the body. But if Mary was present at the foot of the cross, how could she not be involved with His burial? With the strength and grace she received from God for this moment, it is only logical that she would cradle her Child one last time. As part of the stations of the cross, many depict Jesus removed from the cross and being placed in Mary’s arms. Perhaps the most iconic image of this is The Madonna della Pietà, informally known as La Pietà, a marble sculpture of Jesus and Mary located in the Vatican’s Saint Peter’s Basilica. Here a larger-than-life Mary holds Jesus’ lifeless body, with her serene demeanor illustrating her trust that this was God’s will. Jesus’ passionate suffering had come to a conclusion. Her suffering, however, lingered. She must face each moment now without Him. 

Mary keenly understands loss: the loss of a loved one, the loss of a child, and the loss of a family member convicted of a crime. We may not see her tears on the Pietà, but even with her trust in God, I’m sure she shed her fair share of them; just the sheer overwhelming emotion of Jesus’ Passion and Death would cause that. Sorrow and grief can only be relieved when we share the pain with others, otherwise it becomes a burden too heavy to carry. 

In these last days before Holy Week, let us pray to Mary to share her sorrowful burden, as well as for her to help us with ours. She is our mother too and wants to aid us in all our needs, carrying us in her arms like she did Jesus. 

The piercing moment

The fifth sorrow of Mary seems like it should be the last, but it is not.  It is, however,  the pinnacle of the life of Jesus. He was born of Mary to be crucified. His first throne was a manger; His last the cross. And Mary was there for it all. 

In reviewing each of the Gospels for this post, I found it interesting that Matthew and Mark mention several women named Mary, but not Jesus’ mother. Luke only mentions that the women who followed Jesus were there in the distance. How ironic that all the writers mention the women present at the crucifixion. Yet, it is John’s gospel that provides us with the exchange that Jesus gave to both John and Mary (John 19:26-27). How could her heart not ache with all the sufferings that Jesus had endured? This must have been the moment she remembered Simeon’s prophecy of the sword piercing her heart; yet she stood by the foot of the cross for her Son. 

If only it was just a moment. From the agony and arrest in the garden, to the trial by the Jewish and Roman leaders, then the scourging and crowning with thorns, followed by the carrying of the cross, Jesus had been through more than any human could endure. He was in the final stage of His Passion: nailed to a cross, lifted up and naked, condemned to a criminal’s death. The Roman soldiers passed the time by gambling for His garments. Others jeered and made fun of Him. Forgotten were all the miracles He performed. His only supporters were the youngest apostle and the women who assisted in His ministry. Did Mary know that Jesus was going to die? Did she stand at the cross hoping for a miracle? Perhaps. However, she said yes to God’s will before conceiving of Jesus, what else could she do but place Jesus into the hands of His Heavenly Father? Both Mary and Jesus put God’s will first, even though it had resulted in the death of Jesus. 

All too soon during this Lent, will be Passion Sunday, where Jesus’ Passion and Death are proclaimed as the gospel reading. I think it’s only human nature to want to get through it as quickly as possible. Not because it’s a long reading, but because it reminds us of what price Jesus paid for our sins. The price He paid so that we could have a relationship with Him, with God our Father, and with the Holy Spirit. Too often we overemphasize Jesus’ resurrection, and to some degree, we should. But we also need to remember that in order to rise, Jesus had to die. And He didn’t just die quickly and rise immediately. Jesus suffered many types of torture: mental, physical, and emotional before His death. He stayed dead for three days to illustrate that He truly died, and it wasn’t just a coma or trance that He experienced. 

As we journey through these last few weeks of Lent, let us offer up our sacrifices and penances to Mary as a symbolic way to keep her company as she stood by the foot of the cross. Perhaps she can, in turn, present them to God to assist and comfort those who are in mourning. Mary, Mother of Sorrows, pray for us. 

Mary at the Cathedral of St. Matthew the Apostle, Washington DC

Journey to a new beginning

Mary only observed the effects of Jesus’ scourging: the blood soaked through His clothes as He walked towards the place of His death. Yet the events of Jesus’ Passion and Death would provide many moments where the sword that Simeon prophesied would pierce deeply. The fourth sorrow of Mary is watching Jesus as He carried the cross towards His execution. 

While the Gospels don’t mention Jesus meeting Mary during His struggle to Golgotha, according to an article on EWTN, it is based on tradition that this event indeed occurred. The Gospels do indicate that Mary was at the foot of the cross, so she would have had to travel the same/similar road herself to get there. It is plausible that whether they were near enough to touch one another, or only close enough to make eye contact, they could have very well met on that road.

Was Mary amongst the crowd that was stirred up by the Pharisees at the praetorium? Did she hear them call for the release of Barabbas? Did she witness the crowd calling for Jesus to be crucified like a criminal? Tradition and the Gospels are silent on how much Mary observed prior to the actual death of Jesus. However, the tradition of Jesus meeting Mary as He carried the cross evokes a painful reunion for both. Mary watched Jesus grow from a little baby to an adult man, who was ready to give His life for the salvation of souls. She saw the precious Blood staining the woven garments He wore, potentially ones that she made with her own two hands. She saw the depth of depravity by the soldiers in the crown of thorns piercing His head. The protruding wood of the cross He carried was unmistakable. 

While the first three sorrows of Mary marked occasions in Jesus’ childhood, there are no mentions in the Gospel of His adolescence or in His ministry that was a cause of sorrow for Mary. I’m sure there were times, like in so many families, where Jesus’ words or actions could have been challenging for a mother. Mary assented to God’s will at the time of His conception. Her ability to do so illustrates her great trust in God. Mary knew Jesus was not an ordinary baby who would have an ordinary life. When the time for His ministry came about, she encouraged His first miracle. Still, being an itinerant teacher must have brought challenges and discouragements on occasion. But were those instances enough to prepare her for what was to come? As much as Jesus tried to prepare the disciples, most of them fled at His arrest. The Gospels capture Jesus indicating the Resurrection, something that we are familiar with, to be a concept that was foreign to His followers (Mark 9:10). Even if Mary was aware of what was to come, future joy is very hard to see when the current pain and suffering are so overwhelming.

The way of the cross seemed to be the end. After all, is there anything more final than death? Well, for God, death is not the last word. Rather it is a tool used to illustrate the power, and the love, of God. It shows that God is far beyond our being and that He has control even over something that seems so final to us. As Jesus walks towards Golgotha, it is not a journey to His end, but rather to a new beginning. As Christians, we too, will walk through the valley of death, but our baptism promises us that our soul will live on. If we choose to trust God and His will for us, our relationship with Him will be transformed beyond our wildest imagination. And at the end of time, our souls will be reunited with our bodies, so that in both body and soul, we can share in the love that God is, as it flows from Father to Son to Holy Spirit. 

We are almost at the half-way point of Lent. Regardless of how challenging or overwhelming our practices are this year, it’s not too late to reach out to Mary for assistance as we strive to grow closer to God and recognize what is prohibiting us from embracing God’s will. No matter the pain and sorrow we will face, Mary will walk us through until we reach the joy of Jesus. 

Mary at the Cathedral of St. Matthew the Apostle, Washington DC

Searching for Jesus

We are all searching for Jesus in our lives. And in one instance, Mary and Joseph were no different. They, with Jesus,  followed the custom they had been following each year, making their annual trip to Jerusalem and back. Only on the way back, it wasn’t like all the times previous. Jesus didn’t leave with the rest of His earthly relatives. The search was on.

At the cusp of adulthood but not quite there, Jesus had stayed behind in the Temple. At 12 years old, He was old enough to be responsible for Himself and His actions, but not quite old enough to be on His own. Yet He knew who He was and what He was being called to do. His parents, however, did not. We are only given a summary of the events in Luke’s Gospel (Lk 2:41-51). In the English translation, it’s hard to pinpoint just how many days Jesus was separated from Mary and Joseph. “…But supposing him to be in the company they went a day’s journey, and they sought him among their kinsfolk and acquaintances; and when they did not find him, they returned to Jerusalem, seeking him. After three days they found him in the temple…” If Mary and Joseph traveled a whole day and presumably it would take another day’s journey to return, are those days included in the three days? A separation of three days would be hard enough, but if the travel time is added onto that, then five days of separation must have seemed like an eternity to them! 

Mary and Joseph did a fair amount of traveling during Jesus’ youth. First, they traveled to Bethlehem where He was born. Then they lived in Egyptian exile while King Herod, who tried to kill Jesus, reigned in Jerusalem. They then returned to Nazareth although scripture does not tell us how old He was at the time of His return. Still, if the family had a “custom” to travel to Jerusalem yearly, I would say that journey would need to happen about five or six times in order to consider it a “custom.” After the journeys to Egypt and Nazareth, traveling with friends and relatives yearly must have been a welcome change. People were safer when they were in a group. But it also gave time to chat in a way that probably didn’t happen on a daily basis. What may have been a relaxed and enjoyable trip turned. Did Mary and Joseph travel back at night? They did flee to Egypt in the middle of the night, so it is possible. Or did they wait until morning and, as they made their return trip, did they seek Jesus in the groups that left after their party? That may have slowed their return, talking to various groups of people they encountered. Most likely, they traveled by themselves, just the two of them. 

Where did they look for Jesus in Jerusalem? Did they go back to where they stayed? Was the Temple the first place they looked or the last, after many other locations? If it actually took three days to find Jesus after they returned to Jerusalem, then the Temple was the last place they looked. It must have been such a relief to find Him and know that He was safe. When Mary asked for an explanation as to why, Jesus’ answer of attending His Father’s business was not immediately understood by them. Perhaps it took until Jesus started His preaching mission, or maybe it was at the foot of the cross that His statement began to make sense? It could have taken until after the resurrection and ascension that Mary was able to reflect on this to really understand why this event happened. 

Jesus is with us every moment of every day, yet our busy lives don’t allow us to recognize His presence. When we feel far away from Him, we need to seek Him. It may take minutes or hours or days to realize He is right there with us. When we find Him we may not understand why it took so long or why we find Him in whatever place we do. And we may not understand the answer when we immediately receive it. Mary and Joseph make up two-thirds of the Holy Family, yet they understand what it means to be separated from and to seek Jesus. Lent is a perfect opportunity to proactively practice seeking Jesus on a daily basis. Abstaining from obstacles that interrupt our hunger for God in our life will allow us to be more open to hearing God and knowing what next step to take to become closer to Him. Let us not wait until He is a “full day’s journey” from us, but rather seek Him in “His Father’s house.” Jesus is waiting at every church and in every tabernacle that contains the consecrated hosts. Let us not just look for Jesus, but let’s find Him!

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Gift of presence

It goes back all the way to the beginning, just after Jesus’ resurrection. The disciples, who walked with Him all the way to Emmaus, only recognized Jesus when He blessed and broke the bread. Jesus is truly present at every Mass and in every consecrated host: Body, Blood, Soul, and Divinity.

It’s been many years since I first received Holy Communion, and I remember the songs that we were taught for that Mass, but I really don’t recall much of that day or the experience. However, I do recall the first time I chose to go to the adoration chapel at St. Isaac’s when I lived in Pennsylvania. It seemed like the longest 15 minutes of my life. I didn’t know what to do?! Sitting in silence with people I didn’t know felt very awkward to me. It’s different when one goes to Mass, as we can participate in the responses, so even if you don’t know anyone, you know what you are to say and when to say it. But at that first adoration visit, I really didn’t know or understand what adoration meant. 

Adoration of the Blessed Sacrament is when a consecrated host is reserved and displayed for prayer and worship. Usually this includes quiet time for individual reflection, but may also include community prayers and/or Scripture readings. The eucharistic host is displayed in a monstrance, usually a gilt-covered stand that resembles a sunburst, with the host being at the center. When the host is being placed in or removed from the vessel, the typical posture is to kneel. However, after reverencing the eucharist with a genuflect or deep bow, it is acceptable to sit, especially for those with medical conditions that prohibit their ability to kneel for any length of time. 

Like many things in life, the best way to learn what to do in adoration is to experience it and practice it. Attending to Jesus in adoration is answering the call He made to the Apostles in the garden of Gethsemane. And there are some people, who like those first Apostles, fall asleep in His presence. I’m not sure if they just feel so relaxed and at peace that they fall asleep or they are just not ready for the silence. I compare it to lifting weights; you can’t start out at 500 pounds, but rather with 5 pounds (or 5 minutes of adoration) until you feel stronger to take on more. Sometimes we do need to push our limits a bit and challenge ourselves to more, but always within reason and being aware of our limitations. The goal would be to work up to spend an hour in adoration.

Adoration is a time to talk to God, specifically Jesus — one to one — no matter how many people are there. Sometimes, and especially as we practice, praying a rosary, a litany, a chaplet, or some other set of prepared prayers is all that we can handle. These prayers are a great way to get the communication flowing, even for the most experienced attendees. There are so many prayers out there that if you wanted to pray them all, I’m not sure you would be able to pray them all in a day! Unless those in adoration are praying together in a community, all prayers should be said in silence. I remember feeling very embarrassed when I went to an adoration chapel in Italy because the door made such a horrendous noise when being open, especially in comparison to the silence in the chapel (you could hear a person turning a page to their prayer book!). I think the locals were used to it, as everyone was able to keep their focus on the eucharist. 

Jesus understands our human needs. By instituting the eucharist at the last supper, He left a way to nourish us spiritually, by receiving Him, but also to spend time with Him in adoration. He is physically there and we can see the host; our eyes have the ability to focus our attention on Him. And while it can be easier to say an Our Father or a Glory Be, we can also pour out our hearts to Jesus. As we become more comfortable in His presence, we can be open to how He chooses to speak to us, either at adoration, or any other moment of the day. Spending time in His presence is like spending time with family or friends; we share ourselves and are attentive to what they share with us. It’s also an opportunity for us to reflect, to think about the ways God works in our life, the blessings He brings, and where we need His aid. 

Jesus gives us the gift of Himself, present in the eucharist. Can you spare a few moments to spend time with Him?

Getting unstuck

I’m still very new to weaving, as it’s almost been about 16 months since I took a 3-day weaving class and bought a used 4-harness floor loom. I’ve created some scarves from following a training video for new weavers and some hand towels from a kit I purchased while during my class. I have plenty of things I want to accomplish with it, but I seem to be stuck.

While I’m new to weaving, I’ve been a spinner for about 30 years. I may not have spun regularly throughout that timeframe, but I’ve amassed enough handspun (and more!) to knit a vest that I wore on a cruise to Alaska last year. Yet it’s only recently that I realized I’m doing the same thing in my approach to weaving as I did with spinning: letting the fear of ruining the fiber hold me back from trying. When I was first spinning, I bought lots of different fiber types, and some of the more luxury kinds like cashmere and qiviut, ones that need to be spun very finely, I put off to spin “when I was more comfortable with it.” The trouble with that mindset is that it’s very subjective, there is nothing that quantifies when I’ve reached the experience level needed to tackle those fibers. As I was preparing for my cruise last year, I realized that I had purchased qiviut (the down fiber of a musk ox which is only found above the Arctic Circle) on my first trip to Alaska over a decade ago, and had never spun it. I just couldn’t go on this cruise without doing something with it! While the consistency of the yarn could have been better, once I knit it into a headband to wear on the cruise, I achieved my goal of using the finished article. 

As we journey down life’s road, we can let similar fears make us stuck in our spiritual life. We get into a familiar routine and habits, and we coast along, not even realizing that we are stuck and our growth is stunted. There’s only 24 hours in a day, and most of that is taken up with work, chores, sleeping, and eating; how can we squeeze more time for spiritual devotions? If we attend more than just Mass on Sundays and perhaps pray morning and evening prayers along with a rosary, what more can we do? Some might take a Bible class or assist with a church ministry, doesn’t that “count?” Practicing our faith in prayers and works is always good, but perhaps we stick with these routines because they are comfortable. God may have introduced these practices, simply for that aspect: to learn to practice the faith. But we can’t learn anything new if we don’t try.

Learning can be painful; but some of the best lessons we learn is how not to do something. And whether it is fear or ruining fiber and yarn, or fear of what God is calling us to do next, opening up to new experiences can be scary and disappointing at times. However, the fruit of our labors will be sweet and delicious. I loved wearing my handknit headband and vest in Alaska. And I know pursuing a deeper relationship with God will not only bring me closer to Him in this life, but will help prepare me to spend eternity with Him. 

Sometimes we just need to get out of our own way in order to move forward. We read the parables Jesus taught about the shepherd leaving the 99 sheep to search for the lost one or about the prodigal son, and we think that’s for those who don’t believe. But would the God of Love not seek us out when we are stuck in the quicksand of our own fears? Just as Jesus reached out His hand to the fear-filled Peter as he began to sink in the waves, He will reach out to us to help get us unstuck. We need to be ready to ask and accept the help He gives us in whatever way He does, especially when that way is unexpected and surprising.

I have quite a supply of yarn. As I was planning on working a scarf kit on my loom, I realized that if I was so fearful of messing it up, I could try that same pattern with yarn that I was not as concerned about. The measurements may be a bit off, since the yarn for the kit is much finer, but I could at least practice before using the yarn from the kit. Plus I’m making fabric, does it really have to be a scarf or could I make it into something else if I really didn’t like it once it was off the loom? God has given my creativity a whack to unstick me from my fear of weaving. Now it’s my turn to be open to what He has planned next for my spiritual journey….

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Star sign

Pop quiz for you: who were the magi that came to visit Jesus and how many were there? Most people would answer they were “wise men” and there were three of them, but the Bible doesn’t mention how many there were, just that there was more than one. It’s from the number of gifts identified that we surmise the count, one person for each gift named. But who really were these men?

The Gospel of Matthew is the only one that mentions the visit, and the visitors are referred to as “magi,” which Merriam-Webster defines as the plural of magus, a member of a hereditary priestly class among the ancient Medes and Persians. The etymology of the word shares its root with the word magic. These were most definitely NOT descended from the Hebrews/Israelites. According to the Bible footnotes, while the origin indicates a member of the priestly caste, the word has expanded its meaning to a person who has more than human knowledge. In this circumstance, they were astrologers. So, how is it that these men came to visit Jesus, an unknown infant whose parents were poor and unremarkable to their fellow countrymen? 

Out of curiosity, I Googled how far Persia was from Bethlehem. Persia is considered to be Iran and the average distance for traveling between the two is about 1,000 miles which would have taken about three or four months. This is not a trip to be taken lightly or to make just to see what’s going on. This was a journey they prepared for, including provisioning gifts for the infant. Also according to the Bible footnotes, it was an ancient belief that a new star was an indicator of the birth of a new ruler. Was this their purpose in studying the stars? To find out what new rulers were born and visit them to maintain good relationships from a political perspective? It would explain why they visited the palace of Herod first, thinking that the newborn was located there. 

However, “They were overjoyed at seeing the star,” after their audience with Herod (Matt 2:10). This doesn’t sound like they were politically motivated, but rather by the star itself and the destination it heralded. Were they familiar with Israel and any prophecies regarding a rising star? They certainly had knowledge of Israel’s location in order to calculate the distance to where the star was rising over, as well as to calculate supplies for their journey. To gain that much knowledge and experience, they must have had great passion for the subject and much practice in its application. God blessed these men with skills to study and follow the stars so that they would take action when they saw this very special star. 

While in our earthly life, we will never know what it took for those men to make that journey, or even how many did. Was it 2, or 10, or 30? Did it take them 6 months, a year, or longer to complete the roundtrip journey? However, what is captured in the Bible is the importance of the results. The visit of the Magi has long been considered a reflection of the Word being accepted by the Gentile communities, those of non-Hebrew descent. God used what they knew to give them a sign, and they prepared themselves and took action. What does it take for us who are baptized in the Christian faith to see the signs God gives us in our daily lives? Do we seek Him out and take action to deepen our relationship with Him? 

As we  prepare to end our Christmas season celebration with the feast of the Epiphany of our Lord, let us pause and reflect on the “star” signs God has given us in the past, as well as  the wonder and awe in our relationship with the Lord. May we remain vigilant to the opportunities God will call us to in this new year.

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Not just a manger

Merry Christmas! I saw a wonderful meme on Instagram recently that made me chuckle. The picture was of a manger and the caption said: The first king sized bed. Of course that got me pondering  the manger and what all it really is.

The definition of a manger, according to Merriam-Webster is, “a trough or open box in a stable designed to hold feed or fodder for livestock.” It could have been made out of rough timber or even stone back in Jesus’ day. Basically, it was a “table” where animals eat. Jesus came to be the bread of life to us and we come to the table of the Lord each week to consume the Eucharist. I don’t think that is a coincidence. 

Speaking of coming to the Lord’s table, the manger was the first altar, the first place where Jesus was worshiped as the Son of God by Mary, Joseph, the shepherds, and the wise men. What if a church replaced their altar with a manger, how would we react? Would we be indignant at being treated as if we were animals? Or would we see the depth of humility God illustrated in becoming Man to suffer, die, and be resurrected to bring us to salvation?

When the Ark of the Covenant was in the Temple in Jerusalem, it contained the Mercy seat, the place where God would appear to Moses. I think it could be considered a throne, as God gave lawful direction from there. However, I would say the manger is the first throne of God to have a visible Person on it. As an infant, I don’t think Jesus was sitting on it, but it was where he received the wise men who came to pay homage to the newborn king. The wise men logically first visited the palace, only to find out He was not there. When they came to the crude loggings, what must have been going through their minds? Or were they so awed by the site, that the beauty of God-becoming-Man overwhelmed them and was all their focus on the baby Jesus?

As the Instagram meme right labeled the manger, it was also a bed, or a crib if you want to be more specific. It was a safe place to lay the baby Jesus down, because of its container-like structure, He would not roll off and fall, nor would He roll around on the earth. It most likely was filled with hay, which if you ever felt it, would be one of the last materials you would want for bedding. Even the animals would get straw, which is not much better. It was probably rather prickly to the soft and sensitive newborn skin. It may have been tempered by a few layers of cloth to make it feel not quite so pinchy, but it would need quite a number of layers to make it truly comfortable. 

The manger is a table, an altar, a throne, and a bed. It’s one of the most memorable pieces of “furniture” (if you can call it that) in history. Yet it’s where the Son of God chose to rest His head for the first weeks or months of His life. In His first lesson to us, Jesus illustrates how God chooses the humble to teach the proud. We may all be sinners, but Jesus has a purpose for each one of us: no matter who we are, what we’ve done (or not done), or how far away we may think we are from Him…even the smallest, most seemingly inconsequential things, like a manger, are not beyond His gaze.

Let us spend some time this Christmas season to look upon the Christ child as He lay in the manger and ask Him to direct our thoughts, words, and actions to help others find their way to Him, as the angels did for the shepherds and the star for the wise men.